Khalipan

Kuch kehna toh hai shayad... par lafzon mein ek khalipan hai..
Dil mein tamanna toh hai shayad.. par jazbaton mein ek khalipan hai...
Bheed mein fansa sa mehsus kiya khud ko... fir bhi jaise sabse zyada tanha hum hain..

Zindagi

Kuch Pyaar..Kuch Mohabbat

Kuch pyaar..kuch mohabbat..
Kuch shikwa..kuch shikayat..
Kabhi dhoop..kabhi chaya..

Kabhi ghane badlon mein inderdhanush ka saya..

Kuch hansi..kuch muskurahat..
Kuch aansoo..kuch hichkichahat..
Kabhi haseen nagme..kabhi udas ghazal..
Kabhi unki shuruwat..kabhi hamari pahal..

Kuch samundri toofan..kuch shant sahil..
Kuch dhoondhli raahein..kuch nazdeek manzil..
Kabhi na koi raah na humsafar..
Kabhi anjani dagar par bhi mastana safar...

Kuch honthon ke chumban..kuch badan ki kapan..
Kuch bekhudi..bekarari..Kuch ajeeb sa deewanapan..
Kabhi itne paas ki unhe chu len hum..
Kabhi itne door..ki dil sun aur aankhen nam..

Kuch tez raftaarein..kuch thame se kadam..
Kuch akele se wo..kuch adhoore se hum..
Kabhi bandiishon mein uljhe..kabhi tode den zamane ke bandhan..
Kabhi hathon mein hath hum saath chalen..kabhi akele peeche reh jayen hum

Kuch khayal..kuch khwab..
Kuch jazbaat..kuch alfaaz..
Badi fursat se maine chante hain..
Kabhi phoolon se bhara daman..kabhi chand sukhe kante hain..

True Love

He walked towards her..phone in his hand..talking to her..
wearing his shyness..nervousness and excitement..
caught in a glance..all of this as if she had a last chance..

came near..they hugged..the look in his eyes..the smile on his face..
she saw heaven in hell..stars in day time..and rainbows in bright sun..
fumbled for words..dint know what to say..
somehow they held hands and moved forward to find their way..
two lovers hand in hand..amongst the crowded cruel world..
wanted loneliness, seclusion and a new world for themselves..
managed through time..the journey that took off...
but destination is what they were looking for..
with hurdles..delays and loads of excited frustration..
they found their seclusion in a room...
love found no barriers then..they let themselves free..
free to touch..to kiss and to hold...
entwined in each other..they lay close..
her breath smelled to him like the freshest rose..
his warmth made her crazy...
in his arms she lay feeling little dizzy..
she saw passion in his eyes...commitment in his love..
all life this what she longed for..and now it finally seemed true..
he touched her and her life changed for good...
he was a god sent angel..
then the devils took over his mind..
times changed.. commitments changed..
the fears of the world..changed their love..
but just the status of their love...
coz their love knew no other language than love..
they ended the relationship that demanded more than they could give..
but their love survived..even today it does..
it rests in their hearts in the purest of form..
they care..they worry..they laugh.. they cry..
all that they want is each other..in what way doesn't matter...
there is a hope that's undying..
that one day God will give into their feelings which are underlying..

Beete Lamhe

Lamhe guzar jate hain..par baatein reh jati hain...
Wo mukam phir nahi aate ..par unki yaadein bahut satati hain...
Bebasi ka aalam bayan bhi karen toh kaise...
Labon se toh kuch kehna mumkin na hoga..wo aankhen padh len jo bheeg kar dil ka haal batati hain...!!

I wish I was a rain drop..

I wish I was a drop of a rain.. And you a fresh green leaf..
I would have taken birth from a tiny blue cloud.. And you on a big huge tree..
My only wish from the time of my birth to my journey towards earth..

Would have been..to come falling down..
And even in that birth..I would have fallen for you..
The winds would have tried to alter my way..
But I would have stood against them till my final say..
The other rain drops would have stopped me.. with the game they play..
But from thousand leaves on the tree I would have found you..pushing all away..
Against all odds I would have still chosen you..
And finding you would have been like my blessed wedding day..
I would have touched you and flowed on you from end to end..
Cuddled up in your lap..I would have found all my joy..
I would have felt thrilled like a child with his favorite toy..
Least I knew ..that even then my happiness will have a short life..
The sun shone bright and unaware of my agony you swayed in his light..
Before I knew..I had begun to dry..
But then no drop ever has had a long life..
I was sad to leave you like always..
But still content that in your arms I die..
I know you will never remember me..the small drop that was I..
As the stars have just one sky..but the sky doesn't even know how many everyday die..
You will get many more falling for you from the herd..
But for me you'll always be the only one I ever loved..
And if given a chance..I'll again fight the sun..the wind and everyone..
And all I'll ask for is one more life to love you and die for you my only one..!!

My Best Friend

Ek ladka hai bhola bhala sa...
Thoda gusse wala..par fir bhi bahut pyara sa...

Gehri kali aankhen uski..Jane kitne khwab samate bhaithi hain..
Wo bole ya na bole..wo aankhen khamosh reh kar bhi bahut kuch kehti hain...

Wo masoom sa chehra uska..Hamesha muskurata rehta hai..
Par gaur se dekho toh lagta hai ki apni hi alag duniya mein behta hai...

Wo muskurata chehra..wo hansti aankhen..
Na jane unme kitne dard..kitni baatein...

Uski aankhon aur chehre ke peeche ki gehrai mein jab jhanka maine...
Usme apna hi ek aks paya maine..

Bheed mein hote huye bhi kuch tanha se hum..
Sath hote huye bhi kuch juda se hum...

Usse mera nata..shayad shabdon mein byan na ho..
Par wo hai toh sab kuch..wo nahi toh fir aur kuch bhi ho ya na ho...

Uski khushi duaon mein iss kadar mangi hai maine..
Ki ab main sirf hath uthati hun..dua farishte khud samajh jate hain...!!

Best Friend Dedication

When you feel the sky is not so blue..
I'll show you the colours n the rainbow too..
When you feel the sun is not too bright..

I'll become the lantern and show you the light..
When you feel there is storm outside..
I'll become the shade..and guard you alright..
When you feel there are less of smiles..
I'll make you happy and walk the miles..
When you feel you have lost your way..
I'll hold your hand and take you away..
When you feel the bridge is shaking from one side..
I'll keep it steady till you walk aside..
When u feel the world is not the right place..
I'll take you in my arms and give u a new space..
When you feel you need to take out your anger..
You park it in me..be the plane..I'll be your hanger..
When you feel you have eyes filled with tears..
I'll hold you tight and comfort your fears..
When you feel you want be alone..
I'll still be there not as myself..but as your clone..

Kati Patang

Bahut der huyi zindagi ke bandhan nibhate huye..
Ab har dor tod ke aage badh jane ko jee chahta hai..
Ek kati patang ki tarah khule aasman mein..

Bina kisi bandish ke der tak lehrane ko jee chahta hai...

Na koi manzil ho na humsafar..
Ek anjaani dagar par akele nikal jane ko jee chahta hai..

Subah ho toh suraj se damak jaun..
Raat ho toh chandani se chamak jaun..
Baarish ki boondon mein bheegne ka..Badlon ki chadar odhne ka..
Aur taaron ki beech jhoom jane ka jee chahta hai..

Na koi roke mujhe..na koi toke mujhe..
Bas apni aayi kar jane ka jee chahta hai..
Kehne ko koi apna ho ya na ho..
Par pura amber mera ho..kuch aisa ho jaye..yeh jee chahta hai..

Wapis toh phir zameen par hi aana hai..
Kisi dali ya taar mein ulajh kar reh jana hai...
Par kuch pal ke liye hi sahi..
Kash aisa jadu sa ho jaye..jisme kho jane ko jee chahta hai...

Bahut der huyi zindagi ke bandhan nibhate huye..
Ab har dor tod ke aage badh jane ko jee chahta hai..
Ek kati patang ki tarah khule aasman mein..
Bina kisi bandish ke der tak lehrane ko jee chahta hai...

Waqt

Aaj bhi jab uss mod se nikalti hun..jahan unse pehli mulaqaat huyi thi...
Waqt palat kar mujh par hansta hai...
Kehta hai.. main toh kab ka guzar bhi gaya..
Tum ab tak yahin thami ho...!!

Girl Child

Aaj dedo mujhe kitaab.. Kal thamungi piya ka hath…
Aaj padhna sabke sath.. Chulah choka kal ki baat…
Mat roko mujhe badhne do.. Unchai ka shikhar chadne do…
Kab tak sahun sabke zulm.. Mujhe mere liye ladne do…
Padhne do mujhe padhne do.. Badhne do mujhe badhne do…!!

Me

My thoughts..sometimes like a clear sky..
Sometimes..filled with dark clouds..
My desires...sometimes happy and content..

Sometimes..disturbed and unfulfilled..
My fears..sometimes dead and buried..
Sometimes..alive and undying..
My pains..sometimes so healed ..
Sometimes..severe and endless..
My love..sometimes scared to accept..
Sometimes..abundant and unconditional..
I , Me, Myself..sometimes..simple enough..
Sometimes..difficult..complex..confused and complicated..!!

yaadein

Tum mere khayal se kab ka guzar kar aage bhi badh gaye...
Aur mera waqt jaise wahin thehar gaya...
Sara manzar thama sa hua hai jaise..
Kahin yaadon mein ulajh kar peeche reh gayi..zindagi meri...!!

Memories

The memories of last rain were still clouding my mind..

And here it was..raining yet again..

The last rains came with a heavy storm of despair..

Everything broken in such a way..that difficult to repair..

I had made a promise to myself then..I would always keep indoors now, wont let anyone cause me a damage again...

As I was lying in my bed..feeling little scared..listening to the raindrops on my window pane and thundering clouds..

It was all black..except flashes of hope when the lightening ate the darkness...

In those flashes..I saw a Silhouette..It was a silhouette for sure..but felt as if it was smiling at me...

I got scared even more...I had kept my doors shut..How did it enter...

I didn't wanted to get carried away again.. I didn't wanted to drench in tears again.. I didn't wanted to hear my heart thumping again..

I lay there silently..just watching..not making a move..but it was there..coming closer..it still didn't say anything..just smiled..

The darkness began to settle..the rain had also stopped..And the sun had started to peep from between the clouds..I saw a Rainbow..

The light filled my room, the silhouette had a face now..pleasant..charming and smiling..

I felt peace with myself..content with its presence..I wasn't scared any more..

I was ready to let the memories of last rains sway by..I was ready to feel the rains and the rainbows again..

But I was still just wondering that how did it enter through my closed doors..And then I realized that love doesn't knock doors before entering our hearts...!!

Rains or Pains

The rain drops that drench my body..
Or the tears that drench my soul..
The clouds that thunder..
Or the weak heart that shudders..
The lightening that blinds the sight..
Or the darkness of life..with no hope..no light..
The roads and the puddles..
Or the mystery that life muddles..
The rainbow after the rains..
Or the deep down buried pains...!!

Ashkon Ki Kahani

Ashkon ki bhi badi ajeeb kahani hai...dil mein jazbaton ka hai sailab umad raha..aur do naino se sari dastaan sunani hai...!!

What Is Life

A Puzzle

A Mystery

A Book

A Painting

An Event

Its a perception..each one has his own...

It is what we see it like..what we want to make out of it..

It can be a Puzzle..fun..adventurous..unfolding a new picture with every piece we place..

it can be a Mystery to solve..some clues..yet so clueless..some thrill..drama..fun..romance..and an unknown end..

It can be a Book..weaved in with numerous short stories..new characters..some relevant some useless..sometimes engrossing..sometimes boring..but need to read through completely to know the end...

It can be a Painting..with a blank canvass..a few guidelines..and loads of colours..up to us to paint it bright and beautiful or dull and black..or may be shades of grey..

It can be an Event..with series of big and small events..planned yet so unpredictable..exciting..yet so tension filled..relief on successful management..and crisis management most of the times...!!

So make your own Puzzle..Solve the Mystery..Write your Story..Create your Artwork..and Manage your Event.. the way you want it...!!

YOU

The morning chatter..the brighter nights..
Where were they before u entered my life..
The shining stars and the glittering sky...
Where were they..when i wanted to look high..
It was all there...the dew on the leaves..the chirping of the birds..
But there was no one to hear me when i wanted to be heard..
It was all there..the golden sun..the clouds n the rain..
But there was no one to feel my lonely pain...
You came..you conquered my mind my heart and my soul..
You are the one who is made me feel like a whole...
Your love is my abode..your arms my resting nest..
You are my journey..my destination..being with you is my only quest..

Ek Nazar

Kash Ek Nazar Wo Hum Par Bhi Daal Jate..Kash Ek Nazar Wo Hum Par Bhi Daal Jate..
Hamara Chain Toh Kho Hi Gaya Tha...
Unka Bhi Karar Hum Chura Late...!!

Maut

Maut kya hai...
Wo jis par kisi ka bas nahi chalta..
wo jis se koi lad nahi sakta...
wo jiske aage sabko harna hai..
wo jise ek din toh zaroor aana hai...
wo jo aane se pehle waqt nahi dekhti..
wo jo le jane se pehle umar nahi poochti..
wo jo sabke jeevan ka hissa hai..
wo jiske baad jeevan bhi ek kissa hai..
wo jo iss zindagi ka ant hai..
ya wo jo aap hi ek naya jeevan hai...

Pul

Pathar kuch bikhar gaye hain shayad...lakdiyan bhi kuch galne lagi hain..
Par ek sira maine pakad kar rakha hai abhi..yeh pul jo hamare darmiyaan hai..ruka hai abhi..maramad ke liye khula hai abhi...

Toofan bhi tez hai..aur lehren bhi oonchi uthi hain..par mujhe abhi ek aas hai..kuch toh vishwas hai..aapko iss par lana hai..ya fir khud hi doob jana hai....dekho toh sahi..yeh pul jo hamare darmiyaan hai..thama hai abhi...maramad ke liye khula hai abhi...

Rasta shayad kuch mushkil ho ab..kadam bhi dagmaga sakte hain...par ek chore hai..jo meri ore hai..maine thama hai abhi..yeh pul jo hamare darmiyaan hai..tika hai abhi..maramad ke liye khula hai abhi...

Ek baar hath badha do..sire khud hi jud jayenge..ab ki jo alag huye toh toote moti ki mala se bikhar jayenge..aa jao abhi..ki suraj ki roshni bhi hai..fir aankhon se ujale jate rahenge..aap shayad naya rasta dhundh bhi lo..par hum yahin lehron se takrate reh jayenge..kuch toh sambhala hai abhi...yeh pul jo hamare darmiyaan hai..datta hai abhi..maramad ke liye khula hai abhi...!!

Khayal

Unka Khayaal Bhar Bhi Hamari Tanhayion Mein Jo Chala Aata Hai...
Tanhayi Mehfil Mein Tadbil Ho Jati Hai..
Phir Na Koi Shikwa Hota Hai..Na Koi Shikayat Rehti Hai..
Bas Wo Hote Hain..Hum Hote Hain..Aur Guzre Palon Ki Yaadein Behti Hain...!!

From the Plane WINDOW

Looked out from the window pane..the white clouds that I always saw over my head..were like a carpet of snow below me..
Wanted to tread on it and go somewhere far..Wished the door stood ajar...
Saw out from the window pane...the sun so bright..it seemed like riding amongst the clouds was a shining knight..
Felt like soaking my soul in its light..I wished if could step out of the flight...
As the craft lowered its height..I saw many more beautiful sights..the green meadows..the rocky hills..the long roads..the high rise buildings..the factories n mills..
I felt like a caged bird..who was desperate to fly..I wanted to soar the sky and feel high...
As the craft lowered more..I saw the people hussling..the local trains whistling..the slums and the busy life..
Was this the reality..or was I dreaming blind...
Then as the plane touched the ground..I heard the dream shatter in my mind...I was back on the earth..to the daily grind...!!

Samajh Nahi Payi

Lehron ne mere kadmon ko chuma..
samajh nahi payi..kapkapa lehren rahi thi ya main...
Sansanati hawaon ke thapedon ne mujhe chua...
samajh nahi payi sansanahat hawaon mein thi ya mere badan mein..
Baarish ke cheenton ne mujhe bhigoya..
samajh nahi payi..nami boondon mein thi ya meri aankhon mein...
Dur samandar mein uthte toofan ko dekha..
samajh nahi payi..sailaab pani mein umad raha tha ya dil mein..

Samajh nahi payi..kyun mujhe kisi ke pyaar ka intezaar hai..
jab kudrat ki mohabbat mein bhi wohi khumar hai..
Samajh nahi payi..kyun dil kisi aur ki chaah mein hai..
kya ek baar tabah hona kafi na tha..jo kambakht phir tabahi ki raah mein hai..

@ Life

In recent activities that occurred, I suddenly realized that the most unpredictable thing ever is LIFE. in moments it can affect ur living and shake ur world upside down.. just one fine regular morning..got a shocking news that my tai was no more..it truly was a shock..i could not absorb the news at all..tears started to flow uncontrollably..reached at her place..seeing here lying silent was the most difficult part.. for a woman who was always louder than required..so strong and outgoing..always full of energies, it was like an impossible task to see her silent..and not just seeing, but also knowing that she wont get up ever again..just about two days back..i felt like talking to her and making a plan  for movies or something, i met with an accident, and it kind of postponed my effort to make the call, i though i'll wish her new years straight away..little i was to know that there was new year coming this year..she left us on 30th of dec..and with her died my desire to talk to her, to go out with her for fun..and all small and big wishes that i could attach with her..
still coping with her passing away..exactly after a month on 30th..dad fell ill..so ill..that we almost left hope..he was absolutely fine just about 15 minutes back..he went off to sleep..and then i heard him coughing..the cough sounded like an alarm to me..and it indeed was..he was lying unconscious grasping for breath..he rushed him to the hospital..and he was declared in a critical state already..withing 4 hours he was put on a ventilator and doctors had turned their backs on us..they were not giving any hope at all..there was a mob of doctors standing on his head..all trying their best to make him survive..but his condition was deteriorating with the moment.. my father never took a medicine in his life..and now lying unconscious, he got about 200 pricks of injections in just a few hours..looking at him such way has been the most life shattering event for me..i could never even imagine him sick and there he was lying with so many pipes and machines attached to him..time was getting tougher with each passing moment..i don't know what were we waiting for..a miracle which could save him or a news which could change our lives forever..the dilemma continued for 3 days..and then the unexpected happened..he acted as an angel for himself..pulled out all his pipes in unconsciousness and gained consciousness in next 15 minutes..it was a pure miracle..it was god's hand..and i don't know how to thank him enough for it..but these two events have left my life turned tipsy topsy..i am not the same anymore..i dont know if i am broken..or happy..shattered or relieved..but there is definitely something in me which is not the same..either there is something missing..or i have gained something..but for sure I have learnt two things..first..whatever u want to say or do for your loved ones..do it when u feel it..dont postpone it..for there never may be a tomorrow..secondly i learnt that miracles do happen..there is someone up there always watching us..we just need to keep faith..!! God Bless All..!!