In recent activities that occurred, I suddenly realized that the most unpredictable thing ever is LIFE. in moments it can affect ur living and shake ur world upside down.. just one fine regular morning..got a shocking news that my tai was no more..it truly was a shock..i could not absorb the news at all..tears started to flow uncontrollably..reached at her place..seeing here lying silent was the most difficult part.. for a woman who was always louder than required..so strong and outgoing..always full of energies, it was like an impossible task to see her silent..and not just seeing, but also knowing that she wont get up ever again..just about two days back..i felt like talking to her and making a plan for movies or something, i met with an accident, and it kind of postponed my effort to make the call, i though i'll wish her new years straight away..little i was to know that there was new year coming this year..she left us on 30th of dec..and with her died my desire to talk to her, to go out with her for fun..and all small and big wishes that i could attach with her..
still coping with her passing away..exactly after a month on 30th..dad fell ill..so ill..that we almost left hope..he was absolutely fine just about 15 minutes back..he went off to sleep..and then i heard him coughing..the cough sounded like an alarm to me..and it indeed was..he was lying unconscious grasping for breath..he rushed him to the hospital..and he was declared in a critical state already..withing 4 hours he was put on a ventilator and doctors had turned their backs on us..they were not giving any hope at all..there was a mob of doctors standing on his head..all trying their best to make him survive..but his condition was deteriorating with the moment.. my father never took a medicine in his life..and now lying unconscious, he got about 200 pricks of injections in just a few hours..looking at him such way has been the most life shattering event for me..i could never even imagine him sick and there he was lying with so many pipes and machines attached to him..time was getting tougher with each passing moment..i don't know what were we waiting for..a miracle which could save him or a news which could change our lives forever..the dilemma continued for 3 days..and then the unexpected happened..he acted as an angel for himself..pulled out all his pipes in unconsciousness and gained consciousness in next 15 minutes..it was a pure miracle..it was god's hand..and i don't know how to thank him enough for it..but these two events have left my life turned tipsy topsy..i am not the same anymore..i dont know if i am broken..or happy..shattered or relieved..but there is definitely something in me which is not the same..either there is something missing..or i have gained something..but for sure I have learnt two things..first..whatever u want to say or do for your loved ones..do it when u feel it..dont postpone it..for there never may be a tomorrow..secondly i learnt that miracles do happen..there is someone up there always watching us..we just need to keep faith..!! God Bless All..!!
still coping with her passing away..exactly after a month on 30th..dad fell ill..so ill..that we almost left hope..he was absolutely fine just about 15 minutes back..he went off to sleep..and then i heard him coughing..the cough sounded like an alarm to me..and it indeed was..he was lying unconscious grasping for breath..he rushed him to the hospital..and he was declared in a critical state already..withing 4 hours he was put on a ventilator and doctors had turned their backs on us..they were not giving any hope at all..there was a mob of doctors standing on his head..all trying their best to make him survive..but his condition was deteriorating with the moment.. my father never took a medicine in his life..and now lying unconscious, he got about 200 pricks of injections in just a few hours..looking at him such way has been the most life shattering event for me..i could never even imagine him sick and there he was lying with so many pipes and machines attached to him..time was getting tougher with each passing moment..i don't know what were we waiting for..a miracle which could save him or a news which could change our lives forever..the dilemma continued for 3 days..and then the unexpected happened..he acted as an angel for himself..pulled out all his pipes in unconsciousness and gained consciousness in next 15 minutes..it was a pure miracle..it was god's hand..and i don't know how to thank him enough for it..but these two events have left my life turned tipsy topsy..i am not the same anymore..i dont know if i am broken..or happy..shattered or relieved..but there is definitely something in me which is not the same..either there is something missing..or i have gained something..but for sure I have learnt two things..first..whatever u want to say or do for your loved ones..do it when u feel it..dont postpone it..for there never may be a tomorrow..secondly i learnt that miracles do happen..there is someone up there always watching us..we just need to keep faith..!! God Bless All..!!
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