Khamosh Mehfil

Yeh meri khamosh mehfil hai...

Yahan aap ho main hun aur....

Yahan wo khatti meethi yaadein hain..

Wo anginat beeti baatein hain...

Wo sardiyon ki garam raatein hain...

Wo kabhi puri toh kabhi adhuri mulakatein hain....

Wo sham hai jahan barish se sab gila tha..

Wo din hai jahan amber kabhi kala toh kabhi nila tha...

Wo dhoop bhi hai jiski chaon aapki panahon mein mili...

Wo subah bhi hai jo angdai leti huyi aapki bahon mein mili...

Yahan wo hansi bhi hai..jis se mera har pal sunhera hua...

Kuch aansoo bhi hain..jis se pyar hamara gehra hua...

Yahan wo takrar bhi hai.. jisme kuch shikwe kuch gile the...

Yahan wo pyaar bhi hai..jisme mere honth aapke hontho se sile the...

Wo hazaron geet hain jo humne sath mein sune the...

Wo rangeen khwab hain jo ek dooje ke liye humne bune the...

Wo labhon ka thartharana hai..

wo badan ka kapkapana hai..

Wo hath pakad ke barish mein ghumna..

Wo bin baat hontho ka hontho ko chumna..

Wo barasti boondon mein bewajah bheegna...

Wo yaadein sambhalne ke liye..tasveerien kheenchna..

Wo ek hi plate se khana khana...

Wo aapki pyari si gadi mein kahin door tak jana..

Yahan wo har lamha hai jab aapne mujhe chua..

Wo ek safar bhi hai jo train se shuru hua...

Yahan wo platform ka lamba intezar bhi hai...

Wo lakhon pal.. jinse dil aaj bekarar bhi hai...

Roz sajti hai meri yeh khamosh mehfil..

Jahan aap ho...main hun..aur..

Wo yaadein..wo mulakatein..wo beeti baatein...!!

Aap Kaho Ya Na Kaho..

Aap kaho ya na kaho..par Mujhe kuch shak sa hota hai...

Mera hi khayal kabhi..aapke labhon ki muskurahat ko modta hai..

Mera hi naam kahin daba sa hai aapke honthon par..

Wo main hi toh hun jiske chehre se kabhi dhundhla jati hai aapki nazar...

Aapki sanson se bhi kabhi meri hi khushboo aati hai..

Aapki dhadkan bhi kabhi mere geet sunati hai..

Aapki khamoshi mein kahin meri hansi khanakti hai...

Uss khamosh mehfil mein fir meri hi baatein sajti hain..

Mere bina waqt tham sa jata hai..aur mere sath tez jharne sa behta hai

Aapko bhi kabhi mera intezar rehta hai..

Meri yaadon se dil bekarar rehta hai...

Aapke hi dil mein rehti hun main..yeh aap hi kal dil aapse kehta hai..

Aap kaho ya na kaho..par Mujhe kuch shak sa hota hai...!!

Sawaal

Dil mein hamare..kai baar yeh sawaal aata hai...

Kyun aapka hi naam..labhon pe bar bar aata hai...

Kyun aapka hi khyal tasavur mein bekarar kar jata hai...

Kyun aapki nigahon ke jaam se hamara nazrein behakti hain...

Kyun aap ki hi khushboo se har pal hamara saansein mehakti hain...

Kyun aapke bin patjhad aur aapke sath manzar bahaar sa rehta hai...

Kyun aapke sath khamoshi mein bhi mehfil..aur waise yeh waqt khamosh sa behta hai...

Kyun aapse milne ki khwahish mein roz meri aankhen jagti hain..

Kyun aapke sath zindagi bitane ke khwabon se meri raatein sajti hain...

Kyun aaine mein khud ko dekh kar man sa itrata hai...

Kyun yeh aaina bhi mera nahi par aap hi ka aks dikhlata hai...

Kyun hathon ki rekhaon mein aapka chehre ban jata hai...

Kyun aap hi ka saya har ghadi mere sang lehrata hai...

Kyun aapko hi mathe par taqdeer sa likha hai..

Kyun jaise aapko pyar karna bhi khud aap hi se sikha hai...

Kyun hamara har dua mein aapka hi zikr aata hai..

Kyun aapke ke liye dua mangte mangte..aap hi mein rab dikh jata hai...

Kyun meri har hasrat ab aap par hi khatam ho jati hai..

Kyun aapse pehle hum bas zinda the..aur ab aap hi se saans aati hai aur zindagi kehlati hai...!!

What is Love..??

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.

Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. They are all there. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it because that seems to be all I think of. Nothing else matters now. There it is!

Tu Mane Ya Na Mane Dildara...Asan Te Tenu Rab Maneya...!!

Mohabbat aur Ibadat mein zyada farak nahi hota....hum rab se unke liye sukh shanti mangte hain..aur apne liye unko...!!

The first look

However old our relation grows, we always remember the first time we meet, in fact its the first look, the first exchange of glances that we always remember. I am no different, the memory of seeing him for the first time is still so fresh as if it was just yesterday.
Another excerpt from my life:

There he was tall, fair and handsome with those classy spectacles of his and a perfect smile. He looked almost like he did in his photographs. I noticed all this just in a flash when our eyes met for a brief moment before he got down from the train. He was almost leaning from the door. Wearing blue jeans and a simple black tee, he looked really smart and elegant. I was wearing a nice animal print dress with my high heels and just a black eye-liner with a dash of lip gloss. Still I was overdressed because normally one doesn’t find people dressed this way at a railway station, but I gave a damn. I wanted to look good because I was meeting him for the first time.

“Aise chalti train se koi kooda hai bhala tumhare liye ab tak” he said as he got off the train which had still not halted. I could not find words to reply him back; I could feel butterflies in my stomach as he also hugged me while saying so. I just smiled. He held my hand and pressed it softly as we started moving out towards the exit from the platform. 

Dua

Hum yeh nahi kehte ki koi aapke liye dua na mange...
Hum yeh nai kehte ki koi aapke liye dua na mange...
Hum bas itna kehte hain ki koi dua mein aapko na mange...!!

Cooking

Cooking can be a great fun when you really feel like doing it...and the best part about cooking becomes feeding it to someone you love...the kind of satisfaction a woman reaches upon feeding loved ones can only be understood by a woman i guess. Specially when you feed your kids or your husband/boyfriend, its an amazing high, one can forget her own hunger and just watching them with contentment fills our tummy. The expressions on their faces mean more than the food itself.
I love cooking for my son and then for my special someone. The special one lives far away to be fed daily..but I long to do it soon, when i can actually be with him and make food for him, so that he doesn't have to eat cold tasteless food when he returns from work which is cooked by a maid.
I wish god grants me this wish soon...!!

When I am with you..!!

When i am with u... my heart beats a little faster, my smile gets a little wider, my laugh gets a little louder, my hands get a little sweatier, my legs get a little shakier, my voice gets a little higher, and my life gets a little happier every moment i am with you..

When you are here...!!

When you are here... my heart sings... When you are not... then where's the song.. 
When you are here... the world's at ease.... When you are not... all goes wrong... 
When you are here... each moment is a lively dream, vivid and long.... 
When you are here... it feels like i am eternally happy... When you are not... my heart is empty... 
Its you and only you , the life in me 
When you are here... the paths are here to see... When you are not.... there are no roads to lead me... 
When you are here... the world is in me... When you are not... there's no one to be... 
When you are here...even the air is colored with love song...When you are not.... I dont feel spirited and strong

Only with you , I'll have life in me....!!

Love

‎"With you, I began to understand what love must be, if it exists. . . . When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes 
of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence"

Being with someone...!!

I recently visited the place which means paradise to me..no it doesn't have the calm sea and the noisy beaches...it doesn't even have scenic mountain view..in fact it is just an ordinary place..with the usual town rushes and busy lives all around..but for me, the person i meet there makes it paradise, he makes it the most beautiful place it could ever be. His eyes shining, his smile divine, his arms my resting nest, his love my soul...

Baarish

Aaj ki iss baarish mein....
Phir wohi sa manzar hai...
Phir wohi si boondein hain...
Phir wohi sa sab kuch hai..
Per.......
Aaj ki iss baarish mein....
Aap sath nahi..aap paas nahi...
Aankhen kuch nam si hain...aur sansen kuch tang si hain...
Aaj ki iss baarish mein...

Moments

Dil hairan iss kadar hota hai...kuch lamhe guzar ke bhi guzar nahi pate..waqt aage badhke bhi wahin tham sa jata hai..raste chalte rehte hain magar..kafila ruk jata hai..!!

Painting

Deewangi

Unki yaad jab aati hai..
Deewangi hadh se bhi badh jati hai..
Wo wahan door rehte hain bekhabar...
Aur yahan tanha..hamri sans bhi ruk jati hai...!!

Aap aur Main

Aapki kali raat mein..main taron ki baraat hun...

Aapke dil mein dehakne wali..sabse tez aag hun...

Aapke gehre sagar mein..uthne wali har mauj hun main...

Aapki dhadkan ke har geet ka saaz...

Main wo barish... jo aapki rooh tak bhigo de..

Main wo roshni... jo aapke andhere kahin kho de...

Main aapki nazar..kabhi manzilen jo dhundhla jayen...

Wo hath jo aap thamo...jab kabhi kadam dagmaga jayen...

Main wo rehnuma hun..jahan aapko pahunchna hai...

Aur main hi uska safar..jo hanste hanste kat jaye...!!

Heart

Dear Heart,
I am getting a lot of complaints about you.... you don't let brain do its work properly..you interfere a lot in its decisions... please stop getting involved in everything..your job is to pump blood..that's it...!!

Tasveer

Kabhi kabhi kisi ki tasveer dekh kar hi itna pyaar aa jata hai...socho..anjaam-e-dil kya hota hoga jab wo kareeb hote honge..!!

An excerpt from my life...

I was sitting on my knees with my back to him. Suddenly, I saw him dropping ahead from my side. For a moment, I dint understand what had happened. Then he straightened himself

“Kya hua” I asked

“Wo kuch nahi, I was trying to hold you but because of the train jerk, I lost my balance and fell ahead”

I burst out laughing. Amidst such passionate and romantic moment, we had a practical joke and I could not control my laughter. He started laughing too. For next half an hour or so, we just looked at each other and laughed. We laughed more. It was around 2:30 at night, and our voices must be making people wonder what we were up to.

Raat ke dhai baje koi shehnai baje,
Dil ka bazaar laga, dhilak ta pai baje
Chauki chauke chauke se, khoye khoye se hum,
Aankhein doobi doobi se, soye soye se hum,
Dil ne kaisi durgat ki hai, pehli baat mohabbat ki hai,
Aji aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai,
Arey pehli baar mohabbat ki hai, aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai,
Jaan hatheli upar le li, jaanu kaisi harqat ki hai,
Aji pehli baat mohabbat ki hai, aakhiri baar mohabbat ki hai…

The lyrics of this song came in my mind and I laughed even more. He lay down in my laps and I moved my fingers lovingly in his hair. He seemed so relax. His face so innocent, his eyes closed with a perfect smile , contentment in his heart. It all showed. I was so much in love with this man, I realized again. It was heaven to be so close to him, to see him this way.

It was one of the most romantic moment of my life. so much passion, so much laughter and so much peace.

I wanted him to take some proper rest. He denied at first, but I compelled him to lie down properly and sleep for some time. We lay on the same seat but in opposite directions. He had my feet close to his face and I had his close to mine. He cuddled up my feet and kissed them innumerable times during the night. I did the same. I seldom moved so that I don’t end up disturbing him, but somehow even while sleeping, we were very much aware of each other and not just aware, we also were thoughtful for other’s comfort. I woke up at the lightest of his movement and so did he, yet I experienced one of the deepest sleeps. It was because of the inner peace that we had with each other. He wanted me to sleep well, and was bothered enough to check every now and then if I would like to change positions. I felt and did the same for him. Kissing on feet could be equally fulfilling as to kiss on lips. Hugging from legs could be as satisfying as hugging otherwise. I could never imagine. I had always found train berths being uncomfortable and small even for one person to sleep, and here we were two grown up adults and still there was a lot of spare space. We were mingled in each other. We got up almost at the same time, as if we had not slept at all. As he got up, he turned himself and rested his head on my chest and kissed me affectionately. I wrapped my arms around him and we remained like that till we almost reached the station.